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vasyrak @ 2009-04-26T06:29:00

2009-04-26T10:30:05Z

Your music

Set to its own tune
Me to yours caustic
Bouncing smiling playing laughing
And you rise true
To a morning I don't know
Fuck, never even seen that side of the A.M.
And I rise
To a sun already old
Seeing messages from you
written technological
lit up LED
You're glowing

My Music

Blackened with smoke
Cannons and bullets
Sizzling on lithium batteries
Broken molds
Broken minds
Broken souls
And the tune never got old
But its turning
Like an ugly monster
on itself

Going berzerk
Fist pounding on stale skin
Stale blood
Stale tunes
Stale lines
And you were never a threat
You were a promise
A step to toe tip
Living a life that gave way
To crystal eyes
Blue and fair

And I always wondered
Where the fuck mine was
Then it snuck up
And took its time to come around

You sing your tune
And I never could understand
The lyrics that are sung
In your shadows
But god damn its beautiful
Its thrilling
Its magic...

Haunting...

And its doing its abracadabra
ashes to ashes
its melded and changing

In quiet and sincere little
I love you's

vasyrak @ 2009-04-26T06:15:00

2009-04-26T10:16:54Z

Fingernail slivers peeled back
Blood rises to the surface everytime
I see the sun set in your eyes
Like a religious fanatic

I keep a step back

Paying homage to something wonderful
That I can't quite put my finger on
Like faith

Held at arms reach

Even when the baptism is in my arms

And I have walked through this concrete jungle
Woken up beneath pale glowing lights
Sidewalk traces
Brittle on my skin
Like aluminum pumping through my veins
I have screamed my battlecry

But you run from conflict
Confrontation is my game
And you don't know the rules
You think in portraits
With won frames
And borrowed memories..

I think in red, streaked in black
Like the dam's aura
Like that fucking house
Set way back too far

And we retreat
Standing bare against the walls of our distances
The past moments collecting choking smoke
Like warning labels blasted across our souls

Broken and cemented

But you run from confrontation
And I thrive
You dress things beautiful
And I've been ugly

We suit up, in armor of our own designs
And despite the battle cries
And the gilded signs
We are stronger for our lives

And we're winning

vasyrak @ 2009-04-23T17:47:00

2009-04-23T21:48:03Z

Its a sad day

when you can't trust a fart

I don't care if thats tmi :P

have a day
-mgt

vasyrak @ 2009-04-20T05:42:00

2009-04-20T09:43:31Z

whispers

speaking circles and riddles
little questions
to conclusions
wonders and theories

little eyes
dancing in windstorms
little mouth smiles
dancing in cloudbursts
where lilacs cast blooms
towards sunbeams
moonbeams
high and low beams
upon roads
with twists and turns
kentucky backways
byways and highways
past falls
with moonbows

and late nights
in london hotels

With stepmoms
and promises
handlebars
and bicycles
walking miles
and miles
and miles
laughing strangers
sharing jokes

and All into tomorrow passings
promises

I love you's

all spoken
in sincere, little..

whispers

vasyrak @ 2009-04-20T05:25:00

2009-04-20T09:26:33Z

Heartbeats
Choking on dreams, memories
Nightmare yesteryears
Gilded in gold and lies
And we've sung similar tunes
Praying somewhere in a rainstorm
Upon gentletear drops
The thunder of our mourning
The lightening of our vengeance

Crashing upon the dusk
Of our coughing hearts

And I've felt the same as you
Somedays old
Others new
Where the lament of the dawn
Strikes down the night

Past darkness
Heavy sown with our sorrows
Tenderly caressed
By our throbbing hearts

Tugging and pulling
On heartstrings
Melodies that had quieted
To the thinnest of whispers
Heard anew

The rhythm took time to build
But the cresendo is nowhere near
The zennith of this moment
Is years in the making

So two by two
We'll have this
This something new
I'm privelaged
To share it with you

vasyrak @ 2009-04-15T15:39:00

2009-04-15T19:40:12Z

I am a glorious Bastard

that is all
have a day
-mgt

vasyrak @ 2009-03-04T03:23:00

2009-03-04T08:24:28Z

I'd really like to try that sober

vasyrak @ 2009-02-27T04:49:00

2009-02-27T09:52:22Z

Song-Letter Meme

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

So I got E...

Everybody Knows - Leonard Cohen
Everything Counts - Depeche Mode
Engel - Rammstein
Electric Head (The extacy, or agony, you chose the part) - White Zombie
Epicenter - VNV Nation

vasyrak @ 2008-10-27T13:22:00

2008-10-27T17:23:23Z

at this stage in the season, I think I'm going to do something new. I'm rooting for 0-16! Oh yeah, Bring on the "Worste team ever" title

vasyrak @ 2008-10-23T10:11:00

2008-10-23T14:12:23Z

Houston hosts the Bengals sunday

Break out game for Benson and Fitz

Time to start our super bowl run! OH YEAH!

don't ruin my dreams you jerks

vasyrak @ 2008-10-06T12:32:00

2008-10-06T16:35:08Z

"The alternate domination of one faction over another, sharpened by the spirit of revenge, natural to party dissension, which in different ages and countries has perpetrated the most horrid enormities, is itself a frightful despotism. But this leads at length to a more formal and permanent despotism. The disorders and miseries which result gradually incline the minds of men to seek security and repose in the absolute power of an individual; and sooner or later the chief of some prevailing faction, more able or more fortunate than his competitors, turns this disposition to the purposes of his own elevation, on the ruins of public liberty."

-George Washington, Fairwell address circe 1796

"I know that George had a habit for using big words, so allow me to translate into 2008 English: Political parties that put their own success over that of the country's will be the death of America. " - Glenn Beck

http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/10/01/beck.future/index.html

I might not be the biggest fan of Beck... but... I am a fan of George Washington

vasyrak @ 2008-09-23T15:04:00

2008-09-23T19:04:53Z

Sunday the Bengals host the Brownies

and this will mark the beginning of their super bowl run.

oh shut up

ganked from chris

2008-09-23T18:56:42Z

Conversation starter
[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
No, but I do have the amount of apathy it will take to pull it off

[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
nope

[03] Abortion: for or against it?
Against, what? Can't hack the responsibility it takes to be held acountable for your actions? And as far as the 'rape' arguments, if a pregnancy is due to rape, I think that the mother should have the court consent to the proceedure, and have legal documentation to abort the fetus after a trial of her peers prosecutes the man responsible for raping her, thusly proving it is indeed a rape, and he is paying back his community (not even having to mention the mother for her suffering) in prison

[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
I think the world is full of fail anyway, a woman won't make it better or worse

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
absolutely

[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
couldn't care less

[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
couldn't care less

[08] Do you believe in God?
My version ;)

[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
couldn't care less

[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
I think whats wrong is that Americans will pay them once they're here. They come here illegally to make money... DON'T PAY THEM... asshats.. you bitch about it, but pay them.. wtf? If I lived in an impoverished region, and had the chance to go someplace and make money to help support my family, or just increase my quality of life, i'd do it to. Americans are at fault for this

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
No, parents should take responsiblity for their child having a baby and still being a child. Or adoption

[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
couldn't care less

[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
How exactly would that work? "Kay, we done here, taking our tanks and going home". The war should end, but you can't just ... leave... its a fucking mess, ducking out suddenly will just make it a fucking mess for someone else. We going to pass the buck? Thats big of us

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
don't care, though if you're going to off yourself, get a gun, a bullet is cheaper than a doctor visit

[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
God yes :)

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
I love my country, so I would say no... of course I say no because no asshat is going to walk up to me with a lighter and a flag in one hand and a million dollars in the other :P

[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
We're fucked either way. But wether or not people want to see this, McCain would be a good president, too bad Bush beat him the last time (and more than likely this time too, ah irony). Obama would be good as well, for different reasons, though I think lack of experience will hurt him badly in his first two years. Course democrats raise taxes.. so fuck him, both of them are going to walk into a shit storm that they'll have to try and fix, more than likely failing. So like I said, either way, we're screwed :)

[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
HAH

vasyrak @ 2008-08-06T12:30:00

2008-08-06T16:31:26Z

You hate me..
And apparently I'm not fond of you,
But I disregard

Close my eyes
And hide my head
Shivering in the chill breezes
Of anonymity
And plausible deniability

I don't want to be deprived
Depraved
I never wanted design
that I had to accept
I don't like to be kind
Don't beg, and I don't go around
And around and around and around

But I'm not quite ready to drop
Not ready to turn and walk out
I'm not ready to ignore

I still look down rivers
And wonder
I still read and hide
Its not them I hide from
Its you

Its not them i write to
Not even you
Its me
And what wasn't to be

Depending on your point of view..

Because you hate me
And apparently..
I'm not fond of you

vasyrak @ 2008-07-29T13:46:00

2008-07-29T17:44:45Z

39 Days 23 Hours until the Bengals start their superbowl run

just an FYI

The ease of being me

2008-07-24T16:10:15Z

Leann says:
what time on sat for din-din? 6:30? 7?
Bryan says:
dunno?
Leann says:
shall i just plan everything and tell u what were doing ?
Bryan says:
yes

vasyrak @ 2008-07-16T11:38:00

2008-07-16T15:38:26Z

http://www.drhorrible.com/

vasyrak @ 2008-06-23T01:16:00

2008-06-23T05:16:54Z

R.I.P George

George Carlin
May 12, 1937 - June 22, 2008

vasyrak @ 2008-05-28T13:43:00

2008-05-28T17:45:13Z

YES!

a remake of Plan 9 From Outer Space is in the works

Finally, my dreams of going to a theater and pulling a Mystery Science Theater 3000 episode are coming to fruition.

vasyrak @ 2008-05-26T23:07:00

2008-05-27T03:07:38Z

mah grrl
she b a rock star

werd

vasyrak @ 2008-04-18T10:29:00

2008-04-18T14:33:46Z

Earthquake for breakfast

mmmmmmmmmmm eeaarrtthhquake

but seriously, if you're going to wake me up at 5:30 in the fucking morning, can you at least do it with some flair? Lets get with the program here MN, don't waste my time with these piddly little 5.2 magnitude pussy quakes anymore... I want the next one to split the U.S. in TWAIN! Maybe have yellowstone blow up or something tragically awesome.

I don't want to be woken up by another quake that does "minimal damage" ever again, just don't waste my time!

Sincerely,
me

Scrap Book

2008-02-26T17:24:41Z

I bought an ounce of time
Tucked away to the tune of a cent
A nickle for a thought
A dime pays for a memory
But what if I stopped,
Ingeniously crafted fragments...
Cascaded, correlated, labeled
and sorted

In alphabetical order

I can see you've got the answers
At least for the minute,
Dear picture book
that you're standing in a photo
I can read your cursive,
scrawl across your paper
Date, place, moment,
Collected, labeled
and I can see how you stand
With two feet planted wide
Hands on your remorseless hips
And the tilts of your head just so
Matching the slant to your smile
And the glint to your eyes
Frozen in time

I can see you left the glass three quarters empty
Like some mocking pessimist
But I think you're self defeating, on purpose
I think you're inflating your own ego
And holding onto that needle,
just waiting for the pop
Maybe waiting to get your piece
Your slice of the dream
Your own crumbs, from the pie

I can see your picture books
Your photos, and your memories
Blacks and whites, on glossy
Color of fall's leaves
Memories
Memories
Memories

Just don't pack them away, yellowed and curled
So delicately at the corners
Just keep them out, for everyone to see

Regarding Pain

2008-02-25T21:44:28Z

I could write about pain
Both the infliction,
and the addiction
Or maybe the silence
That comes with pride

A soldier, too proud
Too tall, too stubborn
To cry

I could share with you
Torment, memory,
Perhaps shame?
Maybe an ounce of misery,
a moment of tranquility

But I could fancy a tale
Of hearts, and stories
Where wishing wells,
Or wedding bells,
Are in one the same

I could write to you about pain
With inside it, its name
Were it true love, love lost,
Death, birth, regret
A name is just the label
The vessel

I could explain to you about pain
But my heart,
My heart is just not in it

I could share with you about memory
But my pain,
is not inclined to remember,
Just this moment

Pauper's Oath

2008-02-25T21:18:37Z

I used to spill
Like cheap liquor
Waxing poetic, even if I didn't mean it
I used to quell
Like gun metal

I could catch a few stars
In my prime
Hold onto them here and there
I could wish, once upon a time
Waning justice, even if a truce

Even if for a moment

Where peace and quiet was gold
Silver and copper
Diamonds
And a smile meant more
Than my weight in promises

I used to spin
Like broken records..

I used to shine
Like villians
Like paupers

vasyrak @ 2008-02-19T10:52:00

2008-02-19T15:53:16Z

its tuesday
i think i might have contracted the plague at some point..
my lung might fall out

that is all
have a day
-mgt